i bet if this still here like a year ago , all this wouldn't even be such a big problem .
the one that stood by me everysingle day last year . making us maggi when we were hungry .
got us out of trouble . 'laughs sadly' like what zuzu would say , husband & wifey .
'shakes head' and zuzu our 'daugther' 'smiles'
god , i guess i miss him .
my throat hurts like super big time .
'sighs' why am i always fallg asleep on the phone ? 'laughs'
&& i forgot to call back someone yestdy .
GAHHS*
falina feelg like really down && im supsed to go out later .
i'll wait till she text .
sissy's back . with her around again , 'rolls eyes'
i''l have to compete with her , for using the comp and the phone .
plus , syabir is comg out next month , mummy told me .
with the baby also on the way , i don't think mummy & daddy would have time to even think about me .
too caught up it all that shit . 'rubs face'

You mean so much to me. I just wish I could
tell you now but I would never be able to
find words without breaking down.

each and evryone of these girls .
don't let comments tear us apart . Cause i know we are stronger then this .
close yur eyes and try and remember the times we had last year .
i love each and evryone of you .

let's just let time heal it all .
but i can only blame myself and trust no one .

setelah kupahami
ku bukan yang terbaik
yang ada di hatimu
tak dapat kusangsikan
ternyata dirinyalah
yang mengerti kamu
bukanlah diriku

kini maafkanlah aku
bila ku menjadi bisu
kepada dirimu

bukan santunku terbungkam
hanya hatiku berbatas
tuk mengerti kamu
maafkanlah aku


walau kumasih mencintaimu
kuharus meninggalkanmu
kuharus melupakanmu
meski hatiku menyayangimu
nurani membutuhkanmu
kuharus merelakanmu

dan hanyalah dirimu
yang mampu memahamiku
yang dapat mengerti aku

ternyata dirinyalah
yang sanggup menyanjungmu
yang lama menyentuhmu
bukanlah diriku

i don't know why i suddenly addicted to this song again , the last time i heard this song is when i broke up with eddie . 'covers face'
&& i just feel like cryg , it makes me feel like a horrible person . if only i talked .
what do you do , when everyone tells you stuff , horrible stuff . They've seen it , feel it , hear it .
but you can't see that .
you just can't see that person even doing such a thing .
do you , stand strong beside them ?
or do you just leave everytg unsaid and undone ? 'tears fall'
i know my decision , it isnt really hard .
i'll just have to listen to my heart .
&& i don't expect anytg but to at least talk . Fights & misunderstandg makes you stronger , makes you become more prepared . But what if i hate it all ? i hate evrytg that involves tears and lots of bad words and angry faces .

trust me , you don't really know fucked up till i show you .


ivan went in && now i really feel like shit . for not replyg him , treatg him better or sometg instead of giving him faces and bullying him . he's actually really nice and caring .
&& now i would never get the chance to tell him that .

i feel like shit , i swear i havent been a good freind been there for each and everyone of you .
i swear i can do better , i swear i'll try harder . why am i such a failure at evrytg , never puttg a smile across someone face ? or laugh lines . 'sobs uncontrollably'
im sorry to everyone .

1. List one fact about you.

* I Hate wearg undies . 'covers face'

2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?

* California , to meet bahar .

3. What's your favourite thing(s) to do?

* Talkg till wee hours of the morning && taking really long walks at night .

4. Do you think that money can buy happiness?

* err , no .

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?

* to be someone

6. How do you know if your feeling's change?

* Like what kind or question is this ? omgahh . well , things would be diff .

7. Do you encourage girls to admit their love to the guys?

* 'bites lips' well , guys are slowwww . i like taking risks anyways .

8. What do you dream of doing in the future?

* someone in the science industry && helpg people .

9.List out 3 good points about the person who tagged you.

* hudyy ? well i know her since pri sch . err , she's really fun ? she shifted before i could really get to know her better .

10. What makes you happy?

* well , yeah chocolates && silly faces .

11. What type of person do you hate most?

* those who promise sometg and leave you hanging .

12. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?

*workg , in a darn-ed boring life . well i don't know !

13. If you do not have a boyfriend/girlfriend, do you feel like having one now?

* 'gulps' all the same .

14. Who is the most important person in your life?

* must i name ? it's a secret . But im pretty sure he knows .

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

* Everytg that revolves around me . But if has to be a 'thing' i think it would be my phone .

16. If you have a chance to change your life,what would you want to change?

* i wished that i never knew khairul/eddie .

17. If you are given a chance to re-live your life,would you live it the way you are living now?

* Yes , i'm pretty satisfied with everytg right the way it's is . I just wished poeple would care more.

18.Are you courageous to tell a person that you like him/her?

* hah . 'makes a face' yeahh .

19. Would you rather follow your heart or mind when deciding for the right one?

* Both , even if we are worlds apart .

20. What would you consider about when you stead with a guy?

* weelll , firstly if he's really sincere && if he can stand my attitude without walkg out on me after like 3 mths . Looks don't really matter to me , cause once i want sometg really bad , nothing can change my mind .




this is for you hudaaaaa . im going to save everyone the trouble by not taggging .
actually im lazy .
'laughs'
im going to take my medi & sleep .

going home today din't go as i planned laa .
my throat feels as though i have alot of som-som .
GAHHS*
my eyes feels burn-ed out .
but the best thing is ,
SYIDAAA CAMPPP TILL FRIDAYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
'punches fist into the air'
yayyyyyyyy !
so was going home juts now , till i reached the interchange when i found myself, smack into my primary school all time crush .
Jufri .
'mouths hangs open'
nothing change much , he's still damn fair , but he's hair .
omgahh . i found myself staring into his eyes , cause i wasn't lookg where i was walkg laa .
i was halfway messagegg ama, when i cushioned myself into him .
i quickly smile && brisk walked away while he was like , '' ehh , wasn't that ... syima?''
he ask his freind .
waaa . call me darlg .
sabbie , come to school . you have too , hang in there .
only a few more months . 'sighes deeply'

this little kid keep smacking my butt ! but he's the best .


darn-ed adorable kidd .

damn dirty , i was like satring at the water . polluted .




bcus of the thai foodcourt incident , i ate snickers for lunch .


the car that i spent most of the time sitting in .











the view taken form the condo . told ya it was beside the kampung!




im backkkkkkkkkkkk!
it was superly -scarily funnnnn!
wahha .
i got a phobia with thai food now days . 'laughs'
&& the only bad thing that happen is i felt sick & i missed alot of people , that's why i kept wanting to go home .
let the pict do the talkg .
PLUSSS , han cock is like wow . got watch it yeahh .

GAHHHHSSS *
im so effing mad , im so going to get my period laa .
sure thing , soon .
firstly , syi-da dye-ed her hair , then the whole toilet darn messy , went to my room .
my whole table in the mess .
trust me , i am a darn-ed big fat lazy in the bum kind of person but actually i like most of my things neat & tidyy .
'rolls eyes'
it doesn't matter what the whole world thinks , what matters is that i've got you .
still got no words to express that yet .
i had like 8 full periods of absolutely nothing !
pluss SST laa .
after recess , like no more lessons , all my tchers never come .
so i went out of class , dragg-ed zuzu out of her boring math class and cam-whored in the toilet .
wanted to sleep , was in dazed already after sawi & ina draw on my hand .
so..... , 'eyes lit up'
so that's it .
i so want to go this fridayyyyyyyyyy ! tak sabarr .
'puches fist into the air' ilya darlg , just cause i do .
no one is going to replace that .