'wipes tears'
i cant believe im crying again , does it makes sense that the one that make you cry is the only one that can make you smile again .
i finally realized , that this bond shared between two people is so fragile .
&& im not it .
im never going to be , it .
you can say the same things , to one person and say it back to me again .
repeatg , what you guys shared is , beyond imagination .
no matter how hard i try , there's always sometg not on my side , pushing me the other way .
i found myself askg why , so many times .
'tears fall' you'd never understand , period .

thanksss sabbbs for yer ''imma rock star'

cause i love it to the sidddddeee .
'cranks neck' why does this always happen to me ? i give up , seriously .
feel asleep , and woke up after maghrib , not a good thing tho .
going to sit down and try and do lots of stuff , like art and finish the whole bio book .
im half-way through , so yeahh .
art ? im so lazy to even lift the pen and do , so im going to force myself .
'pumps fist in the air' i got my billl back ! wooohaaaaaa , yayayayyyyyyyy .
but like what ama said, i want to literally finish my prepaid card , then use my bill back , but i havent switch the sim yet tho .
see, lianaa , easy as peasy ,'sticks out tongue'
confrontation was, yeyyyyy , saw everyone squirmg in their seats .
&& i promise to myself sometg alrdy , and this i swear .

I don't wanna lose you now
we're gonna get through somehow
I don't wanna lose you now or ever
'cause baby i've finally found
the courage to stand my ground
but if you want me, I'll be around forever

We all make mistakes
we all lose our way
but we stood the test of time and I hope
that's the way it will stay
&&& im sorry , if only i could make you see
how much you meant to me .



got this super nice classical song that makes me want to cry , but i cant find the song eyhh .
plus findg the picts for my topic is so hard laa , the pictures i somewhat cleared , i need artist references next . 'sighs heavily' , i feel so panas somewhere , 'shakes head'

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
got got got got, my N' level paper two .
'sighs deeply' shitttttt , went home early just now , for some apparent reason that must be kept under wraps . The doc say they not sure & result would be like next tues . 'crosses fingers'
on top of all this , i got crap form mummy for wantg to buke this fri .
im going to try and ask again tho .
'rolls eyes in criss-cross direction' i feel so damn lethargic , and i still have to find picts and resources . Ouhh , how this wonderful world is so suck-ish from the inside .
haahs , i should really stop like feelg crappish and all .

'touches cheek lightly'
im so effg cold , that my small hair on my hands & legs are standg .
i had it seriously . what this i hear about stories about me eyh ?
i swear , aint once enough ? stop fabricatg stuff that is not true , what's wrong with you people , when puase mth , supposed to be a holy month .
so much for it eyhh , 'rolls eyes'
this is the most stupid rumor of all rumors , haahs .
im with a guy ? with happens to be a 'clears throat'
not for people to read .
SCREW YOU , LOW-LIFES .

is uper enjoyed yesterdayyyyy ! let the picts elaborate more yeahh ?


'laughs' the freaks-y much ?
cause i love rok-a-by babby .

the duplicate of me , only taller , sissy , heck , ilya .







'mouths hangs open' 'shuts mouth before lalat masuk'
yesterday was wow , i seriously thought that everyone was going msia laa .
i got a post-celebration for my bdae ! 'laughs' super-funnayyyy .
so around like what , ten plus in the morng , my handphone vibrated like crazy ; got a call from shirin sayg she got hit by some looneys , so she asked me teman her to the docs .
i quickly got dressed and all panickg , then when i turun to meet her , i was like ,''eyh ? rok ? eyhh , inaa ?'' then ina held this big box , and sang for me the first verse of happy bdae beofre i covered my face . haahs .
i opened it and theres like cupcakes with red icing on it spellg ''happy bdae syima''
wow . haahs , i was awestruck laa .
then we went to the interchange , and i got blindfolded and had to stuff music into my ears .
then , sat in the middle of no where , without my glasses and then find them .we like played bowlg and pool , then cary tempat for buke . eventho , to you guys thought it was poorly planned , i appreciate every second of it alryt babes . && it was just too bad , that inaa had to go home first , but your presence was pricless , 'winks'
THANKYOUUUUUUUUU ! muaaaarrrrkks . i've cupkaes to last me for sixteen dayss .
&& the cupcakes was super-delish , hazhim wants some for his bdae , 'laughs'

IM FINALLLLLY 16!
'pumps fists in the air' PLUSSS, WE FINISH THE FIRST ROUND OF PAPERRRSS .
despite the rain & tears that i shed yesterday , i still had fun . syida came in jumping on my bed shoutg happy bdae at 12 midnight 'laughs'
rok darlg was the second one to wish me happy bdae exactly sharp at 12 midight and 33 seconds.
'laughs' well i does not matter , who wished at what time , or what soever .
it's the thought that counts .
i want to say a biggggggg ''THANKYOUUUUUUUUU'' to evryone , that made my day special && to rok who nearly got into trouble with her mummy , shirin ; make me feel better with all her jokes & funny faces .
haahs , and liana and ama who console me , to stop cryg after the dumb s.s paper .
AHHHHH , and inaa who gave me a huge hug in the morng , zuzu who shouted across the room .
andd , saerah who badly wanted to be the last one , too bad someone beat you . 'wicked smile'
&&& to everyone and anyone , if sorry if i forgot names but i would just like to say thankyou !
so hazhim was the last one , i was like , ''zhimm , you forgot my bdae eyhh ?'' , he turned around raising a finger and went into his room and came back with a present in his hands .
'laughs' i ran over to hug him , but he lifted me into the air spinning me around .
so giddy .
then mummy know that i hated cakes so she bought like hersey pies the ones you find at burger kind and put them toghter formg a cake . 'smiles' superr sweet .
with a umbrella & a jacket comfortg me , i went home .