yesterday was funn , but really tiring walkg pratically everywhere with heels , traumatic experience . Nearly every house we went to , we ate . I think i gained like 5kg alrdy ehhs .
so we were like crazy drunk people , me , liana & sab . walkg as if we were parading down the aisle , holdg on to each other . This is the first year i rayer with like them , so the 'feel' is new .
despite all of this , i had to go home and which totally change my mood again . 'rolls eyes'
there's no point of stating it all here , just know that im tryg my very best to go out every single day of the week . plus , the worst thing is i had to cut my hair ystd , 'sighs deeply'
the back of it . im tryg to conclude without conclusions on what is your intentions , but still i cant figure it all out .
i rather fly with the skies .
as the rest of the picts are with liana & sab go to thier bloggs to see more .
'smiles weakly' im tryg to still be strong .

ouhh godd , im so bloodyyyyy tired ! m's side came .
&& tommorrw i still have to wake up at the crack of dawn and go rayer 'squares face'air
&& as you can see , i dont know what hell i did with my blog , it's like all over the place ,
plus my darn-ed air head brother took my pc away . screw him !
so im using hazhim's lappy again , im so lazy to go install the nokia software , to put in picts and songs so bear with me eyh ?
thenthenn , today the whole of my mum came . godd, i have been on my feet for the whole day .
so much food , i think i have grown fatter . My uncle gave one look at me , and asked my mum how come i lost weight and was i sick , ehh , i though i become fatter got uhh .
waitg for a call , beofre headg into my sweetest dreams , too bad i cant blog it all out .
to my girls ,
hope to see each and everyone of you on graduation day , i want lots of hugs and tears ! so come prepared with tissue . each and every one of you have a significant value , please dont strayy , 4 years aint the simple thing to let go .

hazhim's away for camp , and it has only been a day and im missing him like little kids love candy .
stuck-ed in my room for the whole day , but it's okay tho .
dare not step outside , 'screws face' had lappy to keep me company , watch-ed movies that made me cry my dumb eyes out ,
&& i lost my favourite necklace , the black one . 'sighs deeply' it hold lots of sentimental value .
i guess it was never enough to say that i miss you .
i still need you to hold me out , graduation is drawg near , sayg goodbye to four years aint a easy thing to do though .
readg everyone's blogs , everyone is lookg for a job , im not sure if im lookg for one tho i find stayg at home a total bore . But hazhim has this job for me alr , not suure if i can cope tho , cnat wait to ask him when he gets home .

yesterday was superily funnnn , but we were all like addicts . 'laughs'
syida was on the laptop , hahzim & me on the iphone , syamir on the x-box .
like seriously , we were all doing what we do best , 'smiles' we wnated to play block catchg and all , but heehs . Me & syida were in kebaye , so yaa go figure .
thenn thenn , after lots of laughg , chattg and well eatg , we went separate ways . waitg for my phone to ring, me & hazhim had like this bonding after 12 thing , we watch a movie togther , in his home till early morng . we wanted to watch who's line is it anyway , but im was too sleepy . 'smiles'
picts later , too lazyyyyyy .

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

this is a super nice song , 'dances around in circles' so i stuck-ed myself in the room
doing well stuff i shall not post here , before people come bombarding me with angry
questions . errr, and now im going out . im tryg not to feel and think anymore , i mean isnt it better that way ? not being able to feel ? to hold , to love . Love , wow .
sissy , asked me what's love , actually if i wanted to explain to her what's love she's probably disagree . cause everyone has diff views on it , what's love to you ? to me it means everytg , to feel whole , to know your safe and secure and you can do the most absolute ridiculous things and still know he's there . Cryg your little eyes out , and when you ring him , he's on the line just hearg you cry , lettg you let it all out . this is depressing .
'crosses eyes'

i miss this these two alr .



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the freaks moviee .
like just now .
wierddd uhh this year . wanted to go my cousins house , but was canceled again , due to well my mummy's tired . thennn , my cousins came over and we had a hell of a time .
hittg each other with stuff , and being just gay aye . too bad they had to leave early tho .
plus , sabs , were you the one that text-ed me ? about tmrw ? if in the afternn can , but i have to leave before 6 , going to my cousins house . cant waittttt , going to be damn-ed funn .
cant wait till tmrw . tho it's sad to let you guys go , i guess like eventually we have to all let go .
i want to do a special post , soon tho .
when , im nnot so busy , with well , guests and all .
sleep well all , 'smiles widely' if only you could see .

im so sleepy , nevertheless im still awake to say this .
I FINISH MY N'S !
'pumps fist into the air' i cant believe it , i want to post some picts , but since im using hazhim's lappy in the hope of someone coming online , i wont post todayyy .
hadd an outg with the freaks just now , happened to be in the same place as aie & zuzu . 'smiles'
the show was super funnayyyy . But my stomach hurts like bloody hell since i never eat anytg since morng then i go drink coke . BAHHS*
the movie was such a last mint thing , i wonder how come i can sempat also laa .
err , and that's prbably it , i'll update all the picts at one go tmrw or sometg alryt .
nights lovely people , that freaking someone dint go online , i bet sleep alrdy .
wonder why it's wrong to love .