aye ayeee , yesterday was mizah's birthday , i hope that she had funn getting all the glittered glue out of her boday thou , 'laughs' she made me and shirin sent her home , damn-ed . haahs , wthe worst part was , everyone was staring curiously at her . 'shakes head' fun aye ?

anyways im supposed t head out to catch the unborn with the birthday girl , well havent yet aye ? a few more days 'smiles widely' But today is kilah's cukur rambut , and my brother would probably kill me , literally if i dint go . So im so sorry you , i'll make it up t you soon enough . Life has been mostly encouraging and close t blissful . But i miss you playg on the guitar and your face creased with tension as you concentrate t remember the chords . 'sighs deeply'

and i know deep down you mean the world t me .

welllll , was supposed to stay at home despite my throbbing headache as though earthquakes were erupting every mint or so , i managed to drag my ass out of the house with puffy eyes and a red nose . fad ranged me a couple of times on the way to work , 'smiles deeply' did have fun , me dona, and syida walked all the way to the middle of the drain part of the sea and kept slipping , damn-ed . I caught myself a oyster , but unfortunately my aunt throw it away . haahs .

overall i had funnn .

dint know this how it is going to be .

actually wasnt planng to head to fiq's party , but i did , 'laughs' and i had hella lots of fun , 'laughs' karaoke with adi , damn-ed siaa , damn funny . and jun feng so log never see him , it was like a class gathering . in a wayyyy , dan-ed i missed them siaaa .

currently on the phone with fad and webcammg with shirin , so cute laaaa .

eventho we push our diffrences aside i know we going to hurt eac otherrr , im scared .

pek pek tul , ugh . Im having a bad bad headache was on the phone the whole night yesterday , actually fad played for me the song already , only i prefer bleedg love better , heeh . if you're readg this dont kill me ! 'covers face'

i cant believe you're doing this siaaa , pushg me ? i know what i want and dont , i dont need someone tellg me who i want in my life kind of thing kay ? & what you really said , set knives in my heart . thankyou , and you say i perangai ? 'sighs'

i like readg your blog , wait that's an understament , i love readg your blog , only well your special little dedication , i thought was meant for me , it seems otherwise . atleast i post all the facts how i feel bout someone that rwally exist , you , 'sighs'

headed over to ama's crib early in the morng , was planng to study which we so did when mizah headed here . got lunch and alll , i swear mizah molested me all over siaa ! and it was captured in picts thanks to ama , i feel like a sandwich , neyhhs , if you know what i meann laa , 'smiles' im feelg very very may i emphasise im VERY sleeppyyy already . ouhh , and fad wants to play stay close dont go for me , how sweet right ? 'laughs'

imissmybudakkecikalreadylaaadengdengtulifonlyyoucouldsee.

headed down to remedial with shirin , nothing new . but she slept , and i rang her so many times again , fortunately today is the last day , 'pumps fists into the air' welll , actually dint feel like going due to some shitxzxz , and damn-ed she knew it from the sound of my voice , nyehhhs . If i had my way i'd give hundreds of reasons why we would be late , all in all , chem pratical was freakg fun , jia ying keep tryg to sheild me from the chemical , 'laughs' shirinnn and me dont have to attend eng remedial , so we headed out of sch and decided to skip mt's remedial . I'd probably fall asleep if shirin wasnt sittg beside me , 'winks' haahs . tried to be in my best spirits todayy . .

after that got dressed and sent shirin to yio chu kang , for what u call it ? tai chi ? 'laughs' entaa laa ehh . I so did not want to meet nash at her house , i would be a victim of a horrible horrible act , so decided to meet her another day . She got the full series i want , damn-ed ! she being so unreasonable , sayg i have to watch with her . 'sighs deeply' she wishes i would ! i so would not , and i need time for what you said to me , i have never seen myslef with you that way before .

why would u still want me in your heart ? i can be your freind , i guess . I never said that i dint want to , it was you . im glad u know that i care for you tho , just think you're still confused and all , and what you said was right , at least you tried to not make both parties hurt . but by doing this you're already making them hurt . shitshitshittt . forgive me if im replyg to you and sometimes like say nonsensical stuff , & you should really sleep early you need to rest . dont worry , i would not let affect u , at all .

whycanyoushowmewhatyouwantedtosayallineedistohearitoratleastsomehowletmefreakinglyknown.
i know that u're not much of a talker , but i wish you would say out .