I remember the days we spent together were not enough ,

And it used to feel like dreamin' except we always woke up ,

Never thought not having you here now , would hurt so much .

Tonight I've fallen and I cant get up ,

I need your loving to come and pick me up

And every night I miss you , I can just look up and know that the stars are holding you tonight .

due to some unseen large bulging circumstances , i'll just say monday i had a blast , 'smiles sheepishly'

anyhoots , yesterday i went out again , it is really starting to wear me down , going out everyday . im like side tracking again , ermm so yeaa went home and saw my house gate was fully open , and the house was pitch black . slowly i stepped into the house as my eyes adjusted to the intensity of light in the house , only then did i make out a figure sitting on the sofa . my first instinct was to run , but i sloqly approach the sofa and pat the back of the person , darn-ed it my mum's voice made me jump sia . haahs , i thought she was possessed or sometg sittg in the dark , but when she stared nagging i know it was her .

'smiles' why she was sittg in the dark ? she throw hot water onto this lizard which hit the circuits thus blackout & and she say the lizard curse her , 'rolls eyes'

hazhim & me ask her to shussh while we investigate the damage , fortunately we got the lights on . but now we have to change the stove , haahs .

at first u made me extremely upset , cause it's so hard to see that you care , and when you do show it , it's just for awhile . but what you said has really opened my eyes , thankyou . i dont want that way , but i need yur guidance kay ? like you said , i'd change for myself and not for you , to be a better person . somehow , & u said that u love me , it was sometg i really wanted to hear for so long . so let's bring it back slowly , i love you .

o's are officially overrrrr ! i think that im like the last one to state that . haahs , well .
anyways , i just finish watchg my sister's keeper , due to the o's all the interestg movies had to be put on hold . well , i read the book at first , which made me cried like a baby . & amazingly the movie was superb . seriously you should watch it , it makes me want to go to syida and hug and kiss her smelly arse face . heh . it really shows you the lengths a parents would go to , just to keep you alive and kickg . heartwarmg story .

i was bold , i was courageous , and took the risk to love you but i'd rather be alone then to let my heart be abused by you , time and time again . im sick of it , but as much as i want to say that i dont care , i do . as much as i want to say that i dont love you anymore , i do . & the worst part is , i'd still want to relive every moment spent with you , eventho we are constantly fightg and disagreeing . face it , i got no idea why in the world im writing all these down when it still makes me feel like crap .

& who am i to say that you love me .