Showing posts with label my mind is swirling with memories .. Show all posts
Showing posts with label my mind is swirling with memories .. Show all posts

Saturday, November 3, 2007


goshh .
my eyes haven't had a break from crying just yet .
Every night just as i crawl myself into bed , tears start to wet cheeks as i silently curse myself
for being so pathetic .
Crying for a guy who would never turn back , who will care anymore .
'PRINCEchmarg .
'sighes'
'MRsmiley face , i feel so used .
If he knew that he has feelgs for her why did he ? become so close to me and all ?
Bring me high up into the skies then drop me back all the way down?

screw this .
saw 'PRINCEchamrg the other day , while i was out with ama& zuzu&sab & sharul .
He was carrying his CPU .
Although causeway point was like damn crowded there was like this line between us , we can see each other darn clearly .
The pathetic me started freaking out . I went into circles until sab garbbed hold of me and held me still . I could'nt see him , not like that , i wanted to hug him even though his mum was there .
I wanted to grab his hand and never let it go .
but i couldnt .

When , ouhh please tell me when ?Am i ever going to be in his arms again ?
ouhh please say yeshh .

Thursday, June 14, 2007

so .
well im writing to you again . pouring everything out .
well everything is soo sooo not okayy . seriousllyy . 'sighes'
i hugged hym watchg hym cry . i made a guy cried . great job ? ughh .
nothing i do could mend that broken heart of his .
like hell .
all he ever wanted was me to say the words 'i love you
but this time really really mean it .

but i never did .
even though i tried like hell . to atleast love him as he did .
'sighes'
i cried like hell yesterdayy . i mean after putting down the phone with hym at 1am plus plus .

i pratically was like grabbing my pillow while my tears ran down my cheecks like razorblades.
and now it overr .

my goshh .
i know nothing i say is going to make it right .
i don't even know what's wrong with me .
how could the feelings juts slipped awayy . i don't even know what i should do .
but at least i gave hym one last kiss .
i wished i could say i love you and really mean it . i can't go on . and pretend .
i feel as if someone juts tore my heart from my chest when i wipe the tears away form he's eyes.
he's so fragile .

i wished i had someone to talk to right now .