So it's been more than two years now.. We have been together for at least three years, and woah was it a extreme journey of ups and downs. I don't want us to ever remember each this way, broken. Know that I never meant to break your heart, smelly. Our lives are due to change, sooner or later. I need you to be brave, brave to take steps without me holding your hand now. Cause everytime I do, I seem to draw the strength that you have out from you. I don't want any of this, no, I'm not happy. Running from the fact that I wished I could love girls for the rest of my life isn't helping me.
Am I selfish to want us to remain friends? Cause I don't think you quite fit the category. I will always always love you, that's one thing I know for sure. I care about you more than a friend should, I yearn to takecare of you, it hurts me when you say you don't need me anymore. You don't know how I feel once again, cause I'll never show, I guess that is my biggest flaw, always expecting you to figure out things, without saying a word. How come you can read me so well, all those times, but now you just refuse, just refuse to see what I'm trying to do. You were always my biggest supporter, it kills without having you to cheer me on. I am what I am cause you choose to love me, and I wish you feel the same way too. What's nursyi without smelly?