HEYY HO LET'S GOO !
Im supposed to be asleep , but it's been awhile since i blogged with my lappy , so here I am . GAHS* Every single day me and baby would have late night supper & I really think Im putting on weight . Need to go on a diet , nyeh ( if i can stick to it for more than 5 hours I'll be super-sastified )
So , this show Dear John just opened today , seems from the crowd that rained in cineleisure just now it must be a great show . Anyhoots , I got free tickets , but baby is busy . 'sighs'
So who's frreeeee ? heh .I miss my girls awhole lots and I havent seen them in 2 weeks , darn-ed it .

This is what I have been waiting for , you and me against all odds despite everything still together . The way you manage to make me laugh till my tummy ache and how I feel as though ur naggy like my mummy , irratatg like my sister , support me like my daddy and love me like my partner . Yur are everything at once , you're the best I swear . God , so mushy , hee .
Why is everyone throwing their love away ? If you truly believe in it , fight for it till your dry and broken . Fight for the feeling that you both started with that burning flame , the way he brings you high up , make you smile . & somehow eventhough there 1000 plus people in your contacts you somehow just want him . Fight for what you truly believe in , cause it's never the end till you say so .

When is too much finally too much ? Doesn't mean I don't say anything it's okay . I'm trying to make it seem as though it's ok
honestly ask yourself , you seriously think that what your doing is right ? Honestly .I'm trying to accept you as you are but it's seems as though it's getting worse . This isn't the first time , baby you have a choice .

On a brighter note , I shall fill you guys with what I have been doing , heh . So a few days back I met baby after and we roamed somerset at 4 am , weeee . Super cold buy fun , & we brought with us so much food but there were only the two of us .
Heh . Workkkk has been super tiring honestly till my legs ache . & I just went out with Ama ,Nadrah and khai after work so I'm beattttt . Shall blog really soon .

Im sorry for not updating regularly . Myabe I'm just lazy , heh . Anyways , yesterday was greattttttt :)))))
Four major events , Ina's bday , Chinese new year , Me & Baby's anni , and of course V-day .

Went to Ina's bday , was supposed to be there at 11 but due to liana we met at 12 , she was late . heh . For the first time Ama was there first one there !Went to Ina's house and eat played , slacked until I dint want to leave . & I was later for workkkkkk .

Seriously , especially since yesterday I ran this place called Preview Lounge (PL) for short . I was alone , and seriously spooked , so I started calling and texting people to come over , first baby then zuzu and some others . Baby came after awhile , but by then I was occupied by these 4 guys which I got no idea what their names were except that they worked there too . We re-make our version of american idol and america's got talent super hilarious . HEH , instead of doing my job I was busy laughing , super hilarious . Baby became the judge with the guys while I became the host . FUNNNNNN .

Then baby went home and the guys went to catch their movie and zuzu turn up , she was getting drunk on my bar on root beer , xD
With extra ice-cream due to me , heh . So we chatted and shared thoughts and feelgs , though me and baby dint manage to celebrate v-day cum our anni properly , I had fun yesterday .
The guys returned form their movie and stayed till I closed the place . PHEWWWW*
So , basically Im having the time of my life these days . My tears has long dried up and I take extra precaution not to fall into that again . As you can see , Im rarely online , that;s one of my tactic .


SO lastly , HAPPPY BDAEEEEE INAAAA !I missed you so much . Luckily I got to see you yesterdayyy .
& to baby , happy anniversaryyyyyy cum v-day , we stood the test of time , it's time we let go of the past scars and embrace the future , just you & me .

I'M SO TIREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD .

Im sorry for not being born with a silver spoon in my mouth , I'm sorry that I have to work for my cash , but I'm trying my very hardest to be able to provide for you whenever I can . Even when Im off I'd book for another job to provide for you , cause I want you to run to me whenever you have problems , cause whatever problems that you have it's becomes my problem too . To see you stressed up that way it hurts me too , I do care . I do care , maybe somewhere along the way I forgot how to show you that .
I know that I hurt to too much , esp since what I've told you last night . But one day isnt enough to mend all that I did . I do love you , I wouldnt bother about you like what Im doing now if I dont .
Im sorry that Im never good enough for anyone but most importantly for you .

GAHHHHHHS*

please if you guys are free come to Ina's birthday party on the 14th kay :)

OMGAHHHHHHHHHH .
Heyo ! I dint want to blog today , but Im so embarrassed that I to blog .
I was on the phone the whole night , and only sleep after 7 and then daddy ask me to go shop to draw cash . So I was like " Ahhh , no need bathe lar , who's going to see me ?" But when I reached Vista Point , I bumped into Vinay . With messy hair pilled onto my head , a tshirt with chocolate stain in front . GAHHHS* He got into SP , but now he wants to change course . Haahs , havent seen him in a long time brings back memories of him singing Cookie Jar to me , heh .

I feel so close to you , esp since last night . It was as though we are giving this r/s everything we have . Last chance , I wont screw it for anything this time . I love you .

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY ROK-A-BABY ! happpp-y birthday to you , finally you hit the big 2-0 . Heh , Im sorry that I cant celebrate your birthday with you , 'screws face' whatever it is I hope that you'd have a wonderful day ahead filled with joy and laughter . I miss you , and I cant wait to see you . May all your hopes , wishes and dreams come true on this very special day. Once again , happy birthday . 'smiles'

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Went out with JiaHui just now , we ate at Pizza Hut and we were like the nosiest there eventho it's juts the two of us . Heh , the waiter thought we were lesbians , god .
Waiter :"Here's your baked beef balls and ermmm ... can I ask , are you guys lesbians ? Cause if you are my freind 'points at the freind' wants to get her number , 'looks at me' "
Me& Jiahui : 'looks at each other' 'started laughing'
Me : " Erm , Im sorry . I'm so madly in love with this girl here , I cant let her suffer a heartbreak by giving her 'looks at that butch' my number "
I SWEAR I COULDNT STOP LAUGHING & Jia Hui keep saying that Im so evil . YEAAAAAA RIGHTT , walked walked around like two mad people then went home cause I had to meet mummy .

The day before I had to go to this clinic called SATA for my medical checkup , Desiree is sucha dear and she followed me . As much as I love being a nurse , I cant have people drawing blood from me , it's just a phobia I have . I held my breathe as they did a series of checkups on me like xtrays , vision and hearing tests and then came the most dreaded part , darn-ed it . I couldnt bear to look so I told the nurse that I'd usually faint if I had to draw blood & SHE DID IT SO SLOW ! Till I felt the cold hard needle pricked into my skin and slid off the chair and the nurse and to hold me and sit me up straight , and she gave me a sweet . Hah , I feel like a small kiddy :) She made sure I was okay before she released me , headed to RP and watch Desiree practice . By that time my arm hurt like a hell lot and when I went home the vein was swollen and it was blue black . I couldnt bend it and I kept crying till my mum came home and held a warm cloth on my arm till I felt asleep . Now it aches again . Screw ittttttt .

I was thinkg bout baby the whole day , darn-ed it . I miss going out with you , slinging my arm around yurs and pulling you into the shops at fast speed eager to get in and look around . Debating with you whose going to get the item first since we always always somehow like the same things .Talking to you till the sun goes up about anything that comes to yur mind . & When ur sleepy you always say " Saye ?" and head back to sleep . I miss falling asleep next to you . I miss giving you massages and your budakkecik handwritting . I miss the way you smell early in the morng , I miss the way you walk with yur eyes on me as though we are sharing thoughts with each other . I miss you saying "takmo emo-mo-mo " , just to simplify this , I miss you .