dumb junwei . zuzu was spsed to be in the pict .



i swear i love these GFs of mine .




daddy's sick,
can't bear to see him like that .
tried to be a good daddy's girl .
went to see simei's ITE .
the place was damn bigg sia . like seriously , there's swimming pool & all .
not even poly have that . PLUSS , the place is new .
i tried to have fun with GFFs .
but still , he's like a fever i can't sweat . ouhh godd .
im tryg to be strongg . really , it gets so hard .
they really make my day , like seriously . 'laughs'
we disturbed the guides ALOT!

im tireddd . && we have a fuckg test tmrw . GEO TEST PEOPLE , GO STUDYY .studyg is the only thing i can do now , to try & keep my mind off him .
goodbye world . i don't see anytg worth living for anymore .

I DON'T KNOW .
'tears fall'
what to think ..
i can't breath ,
i want sleep && never to be awaken .

i'd never want you to leave ever .
there is still so many things unsaid & undone .
i'm still waitg to see you again .
i'll chase pavements with you eventhough , it'd bring us to no where .
'tears wet cheecks'


i don't want to let you go .
we will make it last if we try .

thought about alot of things yesterday .
let's just say .
I've given up .
but , i know that i have already tried so hard .
now ,
i wish someone would define what's love to me .

cause like right now ,
i love my GFFs .
PERIOD .

going to be a good girl && stay at home && study .
fuck love .
fuck life .
it's going to end .
i'd rather make the best of it .
&& say stuff that are meant to be said , before it's too late .

i dead beat .
daddy's sick . i pity him , since i know how it feels to have stomach flu .
he keeps puking , wished mummy was here .
i miss her . since i had my period , i keep scoldg her , i feel so bad .
i want to hug her. 'sighs'
went to tok guru house just now .
passed him my art .
yay!
i shit , watery the whole day .
so i shit out dinner & breakfeast i skipped lunch .

wished babyy was here .
i miss him already .

I'm thinking about you so much
Time doesn't stop for me
My empty heart still can't find your feelings

I can never draw the same picture twice
But my emotions are just repeating over and over again

Let me listen to your love song. I stared at your profile
I want to know about you, now that I've met you

No matter how lonely I get, I have a feeling we'll meet again
I don't need a reason; I know I can't turn back

With the way it is now, I'll just become a part of your memory, right?
My emotions shone like the depths of tears

Let me listen to your love song
I understand there's a person you're gazing at right in front of you, but

Please give me wings and believe that, just as with this song, I swear
I've decided to accept all the past

I hum the love song
I want to touch your smiling face
Even though I know that there's someone you're gazing at

My love song never ends... I've already met you...
It never will end.

yesterday was super-tirin && super fun .
i still got leg cramps !! 'laughs'
that darn ama && ivan like TOOT ! 24/7 disturb me . i admit i was damn pissed cause i don't wnat to fall into ite .
went to follow sissy go buy books , i had to carry my darn board there! then she say want eat pizza hut pulak .
I'm like i don't want , with this bulky thing . GAHHS*
Thenn when we eat , got a darn accident . godd . going out with syida && ama was torture .
they keep disturbing me .
Pffft*

went jogging after that , even though it was going to rain . liana sleep like pigg !! 'laughs'
we were spsed to go with her .
so in the end , we go jogging , in the rain .
sat on top the hill . can see the express way . then it had to rain. it rained heavily when we did that .
i kept complaining to ama that im sooo cold . it was okay . godd .
currently i only brought three people there , khairul , zuzu && ama .

haahs .
we cam-whored alot .
'smiles'
that's all .

i miss my 'Babyy .

i'll swear im going to break .
my fucked upp face when im really tiredd .
ouhh godd .
this week is fucked upp.
like hell i tell you . i haven't seen so see so many people breaking down or losing their temper all at once .
i learnt a damn good lesson . cried tooo much for the past few days . slept late at night . feel so blehh . my eyes are swelling from all the crying , dint tell 'Baby dint want him to worry .
in a damn good wayy .
everyone is fighting with everyone .
all over a small matter .

i never feel so stress in coming to school ..
prelims orals are next week .
&& mid year is in four weeks .
i really can feel the pressure now .
godd .

my GFFs were super supportive , but i know we get onto each other's nerves very easily now days .
that's why i try distance myself , before any misunderstandg happen again .
too many stuff are happening at one time .
i feel as i have to divide myself && hold myself together at the same time .
want be there for my GFFS .
&& inaa? let's this be bygones alright . 'winks'

ENDENDENDENDENDENDEND.

im super hungry .
but i feel like puking .
so let's not eat .

school day was tiring && super boringg .
pluss , i got dance only i dint want to go .
hah! take that .

'smiles'
tried to concentrate during math . i SERIOUSLY hate that retard kidd .
i could just shove socks into his black mouth .
like my mum always threaten me , to rub chili padi into his mouth .
GODD. fucked up jerk .

met 'Babyy yesterdayy .
it was so for a while .
like an hour or less .
wtf right? but at least sometg .
then saw tok guru . totally spoil of the mood !
haahs .
then walk walk home .
weee .
was so cold . but his hands damn warm .
my heater .
'laughs'
then we sit somewhere , then got this Chinese family going up the stairs ,
& godd they stared . Like the never seen a malay & chinese together .
seriously what the fuck .
i just smiled it off .


that dumb syida talk about about 'PRINCEcharmg .
GAHHS*
ystd 'Babyy saw him , today syida .
pffft *


ENOUGHHHH .

im going to rest now .

im so fucked up .
pissed . it's so painful .
my back aches .
i feel like crying .
i just want to sleep . i can't talk to him .
i can't . i can't .
i feel so mad . i feel so damn sad . i need sometime,e without anybody else .



Well I thought that we could sit around and, talk for hours
About things I couldn't say to you
And things that we could never do and,
This conversation has had no face
When the words take days you can re-write and erase anything

You know my heart (so tell me all thats needed, cause i don't really want this)
Knows all this

And I'll borrow words from all my favourite paragraphs
To write about all of these faded things
We hope would mean the most to me
And
Each line is sent i have found a new pages of hope for the days when i fell like I've lost
Everything

You know my heart (so tell me all thats needed, cause i don't really want this)
Knows all these lines (cause my jealous heart really can't take that)
So I'll sing this song for everyone thats come out lost

But, I'll be ok (Is that what you want me to say)
It's called breakup
Cause it's broken
But I'll be ok (is that what you want me to say)
It's called breakup
Cause it's broken

I'll be ok
Is that what you want me to say
It's called Breakup
Cause it's broken.





I'll be ok, is that what you want me to say
Cause it's broken
And well, try so bad to tell me that you
Make it that you're sorry and the
Lines we said
Never meant the words we meant
Cause it's broken
Every kiss that you could ever mean
The everything that takes you back
The chocolate, rose, the kisses
That like chasing through your misses

I'll be ok
Is that what you want me to say
It's called Breakup


&& cause baby , you were that last sometg that really meant anything . & i just give up . cause you just have to say it to my face . Your words are memories and it burns . and everytime i feel that we are going to make it , we fall apart . indecision to call you and hear your voice of treason Will you come home and stop this pain tonight Stop this pain tonight.

i'm waitg for time to pass so im blogging again .

The Bottom Line

It may sound impossible to analyze the unseen, but you have all the clues you need.

In Detail

It might sound impossible, but today, your job is to analyze the unseen. You have all the clues and intuition you need to do just that, today. So when your heart senses that someone is being less than up front with you, follow your suspicion. You will soon see why you were so certain that you needed some time away from them. Or when your boss or another authority figure sends you a particularly complimentary email, believe your hunch that says big changes are coming for your career.

&& that's what my horoscope says . I believe this stuff since young , since i have always been amazed by the stars && what's beyond it .

and the stuff came through . But i don't quite understand what it means . I have all the clues? to do what ?
decide sometg maybe .

GAHHHS* im so tired after yesterday .
carried the cake everywhere . whe reached there . it was already meltg !SORRY FIQ !
but everyone enjoyed the cake , it was an oreo ice cream cake .
haahs . zuzu && me went all over town finding presents for fiq . penat seyy .
then we went to play bumper cars .
gawdd . 'laughs' alrights , let the picts do the talkg .

THE BDAE BOYY!







AFTER .
BEFORE