Choices , choices . Right or left ? Why is it that I always follow my heart instead of my head . See the shit that I've gotten myself into , we as a group shouldn't have lied in the first place , lied into making them believe that our playkit is nearly done . I have yet to see it for myself and the best part is that the deadline is drawing closer and I'm freaking out . It's my marks too you know , I can't have someone irresponsible running my chances . Am I being selfish ? Hardly , we can have fun as soon as everything is done . Why don't you guys get it ? Damnn , wished I was with Zanna's group , or Angie's . Friends are friends , I promise that I'll catch you if you fall but why are you letting me fall also ? GAHHS* I hate this .
I honestly believe that you have it inside of you , really . I know that you can speak , can do . Why don't you show it to the world instead of making it some hidden talent . I want this cert badly guys , really badly cause I wanna go poly . I wanna do well , I wanna be somebody .

I didn't know that ITE life could be so stressful , projects after projects . The worst part ? Our class is super competitive . REALLLLYYYY , no seeing their individual project and all . Secrecy they claim . Well , it seems like it's every man for himself aye ? But I'm sure my darlings would still help me .
On a brighter note , GSS IS HEREEEEEE . Finally baby and I are going shopping and spent some quality time together , seriously can't wait . Heh .

For the past 3 days I have been working back to back and like finall last night i feel sick , to make things worst . There's this woman puke on her lappy and herself , seeing it makes me wanna barf too but her loving husband rush to her side offering her water and tissues . How sweeet , 'smiles' Then I went to the toilet and put my wallet beside the sink but it felt in what I dint know is that there was "kahak" in it & I touched it . EWWWWWWWWWWWWWW , my wallet was covered in it , I immediately threw it away . Ama still can laugh at me , hmpf !

Surrounded with people around me and I still feel so alone , how is that possible ? I gave myself away and I got nothing left to lose but still so alone . I din't choose this or did I ? My heart is stuck and this feeling is breaking me up and I can't talk to you . Let alone see you , fish . This sucks , honestly .
Tell me how do I carry on without this heavy burden in my heart everyday and you're not even here so that I can watch over you , care for you . I pray for you every single day , even my mom does . How am I suppsoed to ask you to cheer up when it's nearly impossible to put a smile on my face anymore .

I pray/hope that everything would be alright .

To A ,
I miss you , 'screws face' I always knew that I could run to you whenever regardless of anything , even if I had a swelling tummy I knew that you'd sit me down and talk to me . So how did it come to this ? I don't want to text and to call you afraid what I might hear , but you have already said sorry . F shit , 'kicks self' Don't leave me in this cruel world alone , you know that I still need you . This is the first time after 3 years that we've been apart and I HATE IT . Despite of all the people that has appeared in my life at this point of time , I know they won't stay . You will always stay , I love you 'tears fall'.

AHHHHHHHH , fine . Today I'm in a super emo mood , I watched Bride Wars and it suck because the show taught me how close the two brides/bestfriends are . So close that somehow your bestfreind actually knows you more than you know yourself . The show only made me miss A , evenmore . 2Months since we met , how long do you plan to go ?
Don't you miss me ? Screw this .

Firstly I hope that you like what I've given you baby , I hope by now you know that you're the only one I want , need and love . You're the only person that keeps me sane . Don't love kay , I actually cried while writing the last page of the book , heh . Sick right ? Cause it's from the heart .

Well the pictures above are compilation of pictures since the first week of school till yesterday . Consists of Zanna , Ayu , Mai , Sue , Kah , Jannah , Anis . Those are form my class , but got one girl not in my class but she's not in our class but she hangs out with us like regularly , Liana . Heh , THANKS , for picking me up form the ground when I was feeling down just now .
Have even the second month into the course and Im feeling stress up already , but I'm sure my group can do it . RIGHHHHTTTT XTREMMMESSSS !? Heh .
Baby is struggling to learn POA in a few days case exams are round the corner , luckily baby's friends are patient enough to teach her since she never learn POA at all in secondary school . You're a fast learner , love , you have always been .

Life seems to be sailing smoothly these days , I love the fact that me and baby dont fight like we used to no more . YAYNESSSS , kay . I'm shagged , nights world .