Good morning people, heh. Okay, this holiday sucks cause I have no discipline at all. To wake up early, to jog, to study. This cannot be happening, ugh. Gonna go for our class pit at east coast latter, man I hate that place. It's so deep inside so hard to get out. 


The thing is that, each one of my relationships are different, but for this one, I gave my all. Its what I would love to call the 'perfect' relationship. No matter how many fights we out each other through I know that at the end of the day you're still the one I want. Let's face it, say it, you're even more short tempered with me than usual. You can't stand it when Im late, cranky, sleepy, or have no time for you. The smallest things I say to you can just blow you up just like that. I try to talk to you as calmly as I can but you always end up hanging up on me. I seriously don't know where we are heading if this carries on. 

Went simpang bedok with these noobies today to try gong gong for the first time. For $20 bucks there were only like 20 gong gong's as well. Rip off I guess, cause I think newton's better, esp the sambal kangkong. HAIS. I wanna go newton la pulak :( kay shut up syima.


I feel happier now I guess, it's been like one week. It hasn't gotten easier, but I'm distracting myself by working till I go numb. Next week I'm working 5 days on top of the 5 schooling days I have. Hopefully can pull it off, cause honestly it's time i pull up my socks. I wanna do better, was actually really disappointed with myself just now, just that I didn't show it. Guess I'll just to strive for other tests and phase tests now. Nursing is seriously not for the weak and wanna slack student, you always have to be on the all times. It gets tiring but I hope this pays off, insyallah. I wanna achieve alot of things and it starts here. 


Honestly, I'm good at giving people advises and being there for them but when it comes to me, I'm hopeless. I don't wanna listen cause I know it won't stop the hurt. I just wanna feel that way for a really long time, be needy and clingy and sad and distant.'sighs' Some part of me doesn't want this to just be a passing phase.