omg .tiring muchh ? i wnet jogging with ama yesterdayy . had alongg long talk with her. felt like the old times . but felt a little akward around her while jogging !
cause she is like the fastest runner in the class . first girl somemore ! hee xp . but she maked me feel comfortable urrhs .
'smiles'
well the whole week i wrok morning but i dont feel too good while working in the mronin . cause i feel lightheaded . then feel liek faintg . then that woman scold and scold . sheesh!
tehn when i rest she say why not gte a bed for me . goshh . the people around me all kene scold because of me . i feel so badd . and tried to fight back . but shes the managaerr .

so i havnet been excatly working with my PRNICEcharmg . since he is in the night and im in the morning shift . so when he come i go .
i do stay longer just to see him . but sometime i get chased off .
hmms . i miss his suprised kisses so muchh . havent seen him in days . and school is gonig to start .we broke up but im thinking of patching when the feelings grow again . just hoping that he wont get tired of waiting for me . cause i know he is the one . since i feel so darn wrongwhen i break up with hym or make him madd or sumthin you know . hell yeah i know im going to be fucking tired .

this sat i have to sort of sleepover at my working place . cause we are spring cleaning the place till 5 am . and im werking on that dayy !and the next ! frekin shytss .
an dim the onlyy gurl somemoree . thought of asking zuzu sleep with me dre . but maybe her mom tak agi . so maybe i ask aka eezah thenn . but im still not sure . going to ask tmrw .

okayss im soo darn freking tiredd . i no longer got any brain juice left .
ill update you when i refresh myself. hee dadat!

so .
well im writing to you again . pouring everything out .
well everything is soo sooo not okayy . seriousllyy . 'sighes'
i hugged hym watchg hym cry . i made a guy cried . great job ? ughh .
nothing i do could mend that broken heart of his .
like hell .
all he ever wanted was me to say the words 'i love you
but this time really really mean it .

but i never did .
even though i tried like hell . to atleast love him as he did .
'sighes'
i cried like hell yesterdayy . i mean after putting down the phone with hym at 1am plus plus .

i pratically was like grabbing my pillow while my tears ran down my cheecks like razorblades.
and now it overr .

my goshh .
i know nothing i say is going to make it right .
i don't even know what's wrong with me .
how could the feelings juts slipped awayy . i don't even know what i should do .
but at least i gave hym one last kiss .
i wished i could say i love you and really mean it . i can't go on . and pretend .
i feel as if someone juts tore my heart from my chest when i wipe the tears away form he's eyes.
he's so fragile .

i wished i had someone to talk to right now .

yesh yesh i know .
i havent been updating my blogg rhytes . i know . frekingly busyy with work . plans to go jogging changed when it started raining ! ugh ! planned to go with hazhim since he's all fit and crapp . so why not rhytes .
hmmmph! work has taken most of my energy . but the weird thing is when i reach home i cant sleep until at least 3 plus plus . then ill wake up at least at 10 am the next dayy .
i feel like a pigg ! .
'laughes' . wells i havent benn exactly spending time with anyy of my freinds except for the ones at workk .
thats whyy i mish thme like hell . i wonderr if this is going to continue till school reopens .
i want to get abck studying again you know . like when it was still teh exam period .!ughs !

i juts figured that working life really suckss . schooll is wayy much better . but if you ebnd up with your dream jobb then i don't see the needd for complaining .
ugh ! 'smiles'
i cnat even get enough sleep in the afternoon! tupidd drilling sounds ! and the theme song from spongebob square pants balring from the tv outside my room .! freking shytss .
yesh yehs i do like it and all . but i want sleep!.
nvms .. enuf of my crapp im going out soon . i cant stay at home for a whole day i guess . hee xp.

'laughes' i always update the evnets the next dayy urrhhs ? hee xp.
well yesterdayy wasn't as muchh funn . Cause i was train by new people . fariiz and suhaimi . dint talk muchh . they really freindly hell yeahh . but if theres like nothing to talk about they would juts tlak guyss . and i dun know how to do that! i told ezza howi felt you know like being the only girl and no source of musci or whatsoever . she told me i would get use to it. i hope so .
damnn the asst . managerr is kinda sarcastic urrh . the has a mouth of a knife it cut somtimes .
but i think i think i can handle it .
have i been neglecting teh people i loved after i start workk ?
i think i have . i havent liek excatly fight playfully with hazhim for dayss .
or lie on my mum's lapp for hours . and disturb my dad .
or fight with my sisterr ,.
ouuhh shuuts .. i havent huged my PRNICEcharmg tuu ! mish my dearies every single dayy ! zuzu , ama , sabbie , ina , liano !
haeshh want outing with them cann urrhs pweashh ?
a movie ?? any thingg cann ? hee xp .

soo .. work was darn FUNN!. i dint feel like i was working thoughh .
i felt as if i playing masak - masak . hee Xp . im like the kinda the ferst production gurl . cause behind the counter is mostly guys arrhh . so my helpful helpful kind teacherss faizal and adi .
teach me the basics . liek how to do combo 1 and combo 2 . the positioning of the fries and fish and chicken . it took me a while to figure everythingg out . the staff down there are really freindly as if we are kinda family even though i only work yesterdayy urrhs.. hee Xp .
then there's ayu like me she's a traniee . at first i was scared to make freinds with herr . but in the end i thought heyy if we are going to work together whyy nott . and im gald i thought that way cause she's really nice !
i had funn like sidding around the the kicthen at closing thyme it was soo darn slipperyy ..
ahhh! .
'screams' i got work again todayy can't wait . last but not least there's ezzea i think that's how it is spelt. if not sorry ! . 'smiles'
she this cute and bubbly gurrl . hee xp . she in the cashierr at first i dint talk muchh to her arh . but after closing thyme we got to know each other a little better .'smiles'

todayy ill be train with another two person . the twins . i forgot thier names .
adi would be there but he is working form 2 - 10 and at the cashier .
hmms not at all nervouss . but im scared i cudnt sleep like yesterdayy seyy . i wake up sleep wake up then sleep again . then todayy morning got a darnn fukcing headachee! .
somemore i feel like puking seeyy .

so todayy is the first day im starting workk .
i knwo i KNOW!.. its like darnn late rhytes ? but at least i got the job aites . so darrn nervouss!
i was like hoping zimbo bimbo would sent me!
'laughes' yesh yesh i know im a BIG gurrl now .
hmmph ! must be independent urrhs ? hee Xp . anyways Farah would be there so i don't think ill be that scared . But she ends at 5! i start at that time .. hmms.. 'thinks' weell whatevrr i eman i cant clingg on to everyone rhytes ? yesh yesh . ouhh yarrhs . zuzu rhytes she went on her F&N trip to msia .
so farah replace herr .
if not farah would be at the same time.

i mishh ama , sabbie , ina , liana and mizahh ! 'laughes' i know i know what about zuzu anns ?
well i see her everydayy even todayy .. but i still mish herr cann ?
i talk to ama n ina ystd for a while onlyy . NOT ENUFF! ..
sabbie liano and mizah hvnt yetss ..
must find thyme .
anyone wna go running wf me ?? ! sabbie ? ina ? ama ? can cann ?
i eat too muchhie ledi this holidayy . and i promise myself to start studyg again . i dono whats stoping me thoughh .. like i lazyy ledii ..
'sighes' STOOPP !
me dun cre .. tunite after werkk ? im gna studdyy ..