HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIZAH , 'grins like a mad person' finally legal , hee . I hope that your wishes and dreams come true on this very special day , and I hope you'd love the things that I left in your fridge (eventho you did most of it !) . Heh ♥♥
Thankyou for disturbing me nearly everyday of your life , and fightg with me most of the time then cryg and making up . We're sick , heh but still ♥
HAPPY BDAY !

Worked till 1 last night & Hafiz said that I looked as though I haven't sleep for days . Whatdaa , that's what happen when you stay up crying and waiting for someone to call . YES , every night , but eventually they never call . Greatttt , I love working , cause for that like 6 hours plus your mind is all about serving the customers . Attending to their every need , making sure they have drinks and napkins on laps & most importantly food on their table . You don't no time to think about your feelings , hell yeah . You just have to put a big smile on your face and get out there . FISH MANNN .
Cabbed home and talked with Salina , she told me bout the hilarious things that happen at Butterfact when she's on duty . Sheesh . Reached home , bathe , text-ed zuzu and hit the sack . Wheeew .

Today woke up at 8.30 , suddenly my phone alarm tone is the most irritating sound I've ever heard . Got bathe and dressed , called Zuzu that smelly arse still sleepg , took my time to do my hair and all , in the end I was the one who came late . Rushed to Orchard got my pay , buy the stuff and feed the pussy donuts and headed t woodlands and to Mizah's house to bake . All in the nick of time , I was super pissed already cause it was super hot and I was carrying so many things . Heh , while Mizah baked , hey , I helped also okay ! Psht . Me and Zuzu fooled around and Zuzu felt asleep while I ate . Then we all headed out , said bye to Mizah and me and Zuzu headed to her place rented some cd's and watch them over a bowl of tom yam noodles , yum 'grins' In the end I felt asleep , while Zuzu was reading to me . Heh , your voice was super soothing okay ! Heh , then Zuzu's mum wanted salt so headed out again to get some and get pancakes and then I headed home . I'm super shag , but Thanks Mizah for the earlier part of the day (stepping on me and saying you love me , whatdaaa ♥ )& Zuzu for these past 2 days has been awesome , always putting a smile on my face and cracking me up ," I cannn , I cannn make your bed rock," Heh .I love you , 'grins' You made me forget , but still ..

Im sick and tired of being sick and tired , waiting for a call every night that Im never going to get . Its draining me , It's you Im missing , din't know that was so hard to understand . You turn my rainiest days into sunshine how did it turned out this way , I seriously don't know what to say . Once you asked me why Im crying when I know it would change nothing , well simply cause it hurts . All I can afford to do is to shed my worthless tears for you , rip my aching heart and give it to you and give you a piece of my restless mind . But , I've learnt that it doesn't matter to you just like every other thing I do . You're so close yet I can't seem to reach you , I just don't know who you are anymore . They said in love you have to compromise , break rules you swore you wont break , to give and to understand , Im understanding and holding it in , you used to share you used to give , you used to understand but most importantly you used to love me . I ask myself constantly how am I supposed to let go of someone who is my everything , who used to calm me down just by hholding my hand , who understand me without saying anything at all , who loved me without any intention of using me , who's love was so pure . Who alwas reminded me I'm not alone , well I don't know how to answer that question yet , cause Im still dealing with it . I dont even know what we are , crap . Im crying again , 'sighs'
For gods sake , i love you .

I just need somebody to love , I need somebody .. DID I TELL YOU GUYS HOW MUCH I LOVE JUSTIN BIEBER ? Well , Im telling you guys now :)
And when he sings those heartfelt songs , make me just wanna sit down and cry . Hahs , so basically today , I got an very early morning call from baby , Im sorry that I can't help you . Im so sorry 'sighs'

Have you ever fought with your significant other , and both of you are just pissed at each other and arguing just seems to worsen everything ? And when either which hangs up the phone one you leaving you crying , and you sleep just to make yourself feel better , but it hits you like a brick on the head when u wake up the next day reminding you last night was real ? Well welcome to my world ♥

Had a BLAST just now . Seriously feeling under the weather these days , so texted Zuzu & amazingly she wasn't workg . Haahs , headed to causeway to return my books and well we couldn't help ourselves from getting some guilty pleasures , 'grins' Then headed to Nad's crib to eat , catch up with each other and all . In the end I got grope numerous of times by Zuzu ! Gahhs * I'm proud to say that eventho nad's bed seduce me like crazy I did not fall asleep this time , heh .

That's all folks .
Im just still cold , just like the way you treat me .

Basically , Im super free this week . But when I'm super free , everyone suddenly seems to be so busy . The weather seriously suits my mood , futhermore after endless of fights . I dont fight to fight with you , Im just telling you cause I tell you everything dont I ? It seems that Im preparing me heart for the worst , somehow I feel this is getting old , and this time this is for real . If you want to let me go , just do it quickly . I talk as though this isn't hurting me , no wonder you said it's as though I don't care about you . You know I love you so , but , 'sighs'

So Thursday as promised I turned up for my last day at work , I forgot what it was called though & so I became the bar women serving beer and wines . I wonder why white wine seems to be in more demand than the red one . But the thing that really cracked me up was when this super-singaporean person walked to me and said ," Can I have a glass of RAD wine ?," Trying too hard , pfft * Blahh , we couldn't wait till the whole event was done . And when it was , we had a party of our own , super fun . We started drinking and twisting and doing stupid stuff , well there was alot of leftover food so we ate until we were so full we lay on the floor and talked and talked . They pestered me not to leave , but I just can't ... Im so sorry .

Then today , headed down to West Coast Mall , to support Desiree in her dance comp . Proud to say they made through into the finals ! YAYYYY ! Haahs , anyhoots , I got lost 3 times on my way there , 'screws face' Wasting my stupid adult fare ezlink . & When I got there I was soaking wet and cold , cause it was raining again . Took lots of picts , ate and then headed to Lot 1 to go home with mummy .

Im super cold , hugs anyone ?

Baby , I seriously love you kay . Let's try .

I swear I love this fuzzy mess of mine . GEH * It's actually sad to be leaving , Siti gave in and talked to me , heh . And next Thursday would somesort of farewell for me , cause all of us would be doing and event at PL .If only I could find my Polaroid camera . 'sighs' We had staff meeting yesterday , I swear I didn't want to go but Brandon made me extend till 10 so I had to go . Whadaaa , came in and people all turned and look at me and Siti , heh . So while Andrew was conducting the meeting he emphasized that he hated employees that throw temper and throw their badge saying they want to resign and looked directly at me . Whatttttthehoot , anyways then the worst part is he said " Right syima ? " , I just nodded and Siti poked me . Haahs , other than that Andrew seems to have warmed up to me , He caught me eating 3 times , though it was the same hotdog . And also me blending smoothies for Anwar .Wished she could stayed longer .


I would never go a day without you , Im trying the very best I can .

Spooked .

Forced myself to be brave about this and went to register with mummy , the whole time there I couldn't calm my nerves and so to calm me down I called Ama and talked to her all the way . I must say she did a pretty good job , 'grins'
Then rushed down to work , was last 5 minutes , wheew . With the crowd at Cineleisure and at the lift lobby I had to take the escalator up , darn-ed . Rushed to change and took my charger , books and the Preview Lounge keys and ran up . When Zuzu texted saying that she's coming with Mizah & Faris to watch Alice in Wonderland 3D . That show seriously gives me the creeps , I hate the way they did Johnny Depp's Make up .
On the first day it was launched five families took their crying kids out of the cinema . Heh . Go watch it for yourself , I watched the show already anyways .

So , then Zuzu , Mizah & Faris arrived and chatted with them for awhile till my manager came in and brief me about tomorrow's events set up . Thennnn , awhile later my flustered manager came walking in with Fann Wong and her husband , I was awed . Heh . & No , I dint take a picture with them even though my manager did ! Their oder was super huge , like 16 beverages and 12 popcorns and we had to sent by a tray . So much for star treatment . Awhile later he came back in with his laptop and slept upstairs the lounge . So I was all alone till Ain came and started tearing tickets for hall 6 , we were talking when the cutlery I prepared for tomorrow's event just flew to the floor by itself , I have the tendency to point out what I hear or see . When I did point out to Ain , the rest of the cutlery flew to the floor , Me and Ain stared at each other for awhile before we started running . I was super scared and dragged Aki in . He told me even more stuff I dint want to hear , but accompanied me for awhile . It was 11.30pm and I only can close at 12.30 . So for that one hour iI locked myself in the kitchen and read a book . I heard people going up and down of the stairs but whenever I open the door to check there was always no one . I swear I wanted to cry , so I quickly closed the place before it was supposed to and ran down . Gahhs * And so I headed back home with Naqiah and I told her all about it , and she told me I havent seen anything yet . What the hell ...

Registration is this Friday , thinking about it still frustrates me 'sighs' , but I'm left with no choice . AHHHHH , whatever .
So , I watched Valentine's Day with Mizah a few days back , it made me teared , heh . It was free , that's why we watched it when the entire Singapore watched it already :)

Two days back , headed home with Baby but she went to meet her friends so I was about to go home by myself when I bumped into my cousin , Dona . She told me something really disturbing . How could you , why did you ? God , what is wrong with you . Why did you get drunk bcus of me , that's bcus I still mean something to you and it clearly shows . But , Im just going to pretend like I dint hear any of these . It took me everything I had in me to stop myself from calling you that night . It would not change anything , it already happened . It's better this way you & me , far apart .
Don't come back to me , ever .

I better get going , going t meet baby then head to work .
Have fun everyone , cause I know I will , 'smiles'