The way that I’m feeling is hard to describe . I feel lost and alone in this unbearable life .
My emotions are twisted, my stomach in knots . I wish there was something to erase my thoughts .
I feel so desperately clingy I feel so free of heart . If you could please just kiss me that would be a great place to start
I do not like the feeling of not knowing how you feel . I don’t like looking in your eyes and seeing all my fears .
I really feel so empty searching for the light . Maybe if you could please turn it on tonight .
My head is all clouded my eyes full of tears . I can hold on to this feeling for years
I hope that is passes, maybe merely a phase . I am ready to be out of this daze
I am going to try to fake my smile . Maybe that will last for a while .
If you think you see a smile on my face . Look a little deeper you’ll see I’m out of place
Maybe someday soon the sun will shine . Even through the pain i pray that you are always mine.

with much love ,
syima .

my fingers are numb from hours of paper cutting , i wanna finish it so badly , but if i do it too quick i'd mess it up with my impatience .

slow and steady is the way to play the game people . haahs , kay enough .

actually , i feelg kinda sad ? dissapointed , in agony . hahh , i dont even have the perfect vocab for it .

i thought that by now i would have learnt , but still i made the same mistake again and again .

it's time i really open my eyes to see who's there for me and who isnt , guess what ? you're not part of it .

gahhs * enough about u and yur crap alreadyyy .

somehow you manage to kept me without chains , and hold me without a touch .

u wont believe when i say that i never wanted anything this much .

and as i live here on my knees , im trying to make you see that you're eveyhing i need .

my gravity .

maybe.someday.you.shall.see.i.want.you.here.with.me.

lazy blogggg .

feel like shit .

burned my hand .

looks horrible .

my heart is aching for ...

so close yet so far at heart .

i want you .

i dont wnat to lose you know , we shall get through this somehow .
i dont wnat to lose now or ever , cause baby you thought me how to stay .
so why are you runng away ?

we all make mistakes , we all lose our way .
we already stood the test of time , and that's the way it would stay .
i just wanted to show you .

& i miss the crap we'd get into , the agony that we went thru .
most of all , i miss having fun with you , uno anyone ?

there's still sometg in your eyes that blows me away,
i need to have a reason for me to believe why im still living yet so alone .
i cant sleep , i keep tossing and turng , somehow i cant put my mind to ease ,
and my heart is still so heavy .
im tryg to be there for people, but mine is still a living hell .
how it's all so unstable and unsure , i hate it . i hate doing this .

the rising tension in my house is horrible , it is as though this house is a ticking bomb , soon enough someone will bloww ...
'sighs deeply' and i feel so helpless , i wished i could talk to someone, screm it out ! but no one seems to be listeng , all so involved with their own matters and i dont wish to be one of their problems .

i make a mistake , screw it . i made a whole bunch of mistakes , but i admit to them im sayg sorry , what else can i do ? i can only pray that you'd look at me like how you used to , with those eyes of yours love . your fuse is runng short with me , i dont blame you . i only got myslef to blame .
screw it . ust know that , misbehaving only makes the ditch between us so darn deep .