Surrounded with people around me and I still feel so alone , how is that possible ? I gave myself away and I got nothing left to lose but still so alone . I din't choose this or did I ? My heart is stuck and this feeling is breaking me up and I can't talk to you . Let alone see you , fish . This sucks , honestly .
Tell me how do I carry on without this heavy burden in my heart everyday and you're not even here so that I can watch over you , care for you . I pray for you every single day , even my mom does . How am I suppsoed to ask you to cheer up when it's nearly impossible to put a smile on my face anymore .

I pray/hope that everything would be alright .