i stayed up till 3 wanderg around .
i bet things are better when it's all left alone .
if i don't go tryg to solve it , or make it better .
i'll just have to get use to it right , && that's way better .
i force myself really hard last night not to be weak .
&& every time i feel like breaking down ( which is two times every hour)
there will be a scar of my leg which i inflict .

i thought i could use someone to talk to last night ..
i was feelg really suckish . But instead , that special someone was feelg suckish herself .
godd , i know how she feeeels , but i can't help ease the pain right now .
bcus time would heal the wounds . even though if it takes years ,
but i just want to let her know , that she'll have me to lean on when everytg goes wrong .

i want try to pull her back up , goshh she's the strongest person i know .
&&& i know she can make it through .