Selamat Hari Raya kawan kawan ku!

 My brother, he saw me crying on malam raya on the floor like one hopeless person, gasping for air to breathe so he came, pulled my hand to the toilet ask me to wash my face and ask me to follow him to the shop. Good idea, cause when I did, he knocked some sense into my head like he always does.

 The one person that can make want to slap her senseless, but I can't go a day without her being with me.

Nearly complete family, see how mummy smile? HAHAHA. Joke, Daddy was at granny's house that's why he's not in the picture. One thing you'd realize as you grow older is that you wanna spend less time with your friends and more time with your family cause you feel as though you have limited time with them. I love Mummy Daady Hazhim and Syida so much, though we fight nearly everyday that fact will never change.

Im thankful for the people ho have been there for me every single time when I'm breaking down, even when I'm not supposed to feel that way. Thank you Razean, for hearing me out, watching me cry, hearing me say I'll be okay but tear up again the next moment. You never gave up on me, thank you. I don;t know how to show you, but one day I will.
& especially fie, whom I ask her to fuck off la, shut up, push her away, she's still there, literally wiping the tears of my face cause I'm such a weepy kid. I have promised myself that I won;t cry for you anymore, I won;t cry for you till I can;t breathe gasping fr air, feeling like crap every single day when I wake  up and when I sleep.You've stripped me off everything close to my heart, making me feel so useless. I don't want to ever feel that way anymore, ever.

As for me right now, I wanna focus on things that matter the most to me right now. Care for the people that has never left my side cause I was feeling this way, be there for them. I'll never forget how you hugged me on the floor when I was crying for her, the first thing you see when you wake up.

Smile eventhough your heart is frowning.