setelah kupahami
ku bukan yang terbaik
yang ada di hatimu
tak dapat kusangsikan
ternyata dirinyalah
yang mengerti kamu
bukanlah diriku

kini maafkanlah aku
bila ku menjadi bisu
kepada dirimu

bukan santunku terbungkam
hanya hatiku berbatas
tuk mengerti kamu
maafkanlah aku


walau kumasih mencintaimu
kuharus meninggalkanmu
kuharus melupakanmu
meski hatiku menyayangimu
nurani membutuhkanmu
kuharus merelakanmu

dan hanyalah dirimu
yang mampu memahamiku
yang dapat mengerti aku

ternyata dirinyalah
yang sanggup menyanjungmu
yang lama menyentuhmu
bukanlah diriku

i don't know why i suddenly addicted to this song again , the last time i heard this song is when i broke up with eddie . 'covers face'
&& i just feel like cryg , it makes me feel like a horrible person . if only i talked .
what do you do , when everyone tells you stuff , horrible stuff . They've seen it , feel it , hear it .
but you can't see that .
you just can't see that person even doing such a thing .
do you , stand strong beside them ?
or do you just leave everytg unsaid and undone ? 'tears fall'
i know my decision , it isnt really hard .
i'll just have to listen to my heart .
&& i don't expect anytg but to at least talk . Fights & misunderstandg makes you stronger , makes you become more prepared . But what if i hate it all ? i hate evrytg that involves tears and lots of bad words and angry faces .

trust me , you don't really know fucked up till i show you .


ivan went in && now i really feel like shit . for not replyg him , treatg him better or sometg instead of giving him faces and bullying him . he's actually really nice and caring .
&& now i would never get the chance to tell him that .

i feel like shit , i swear i havent been a good freind been there for each and everyone of you .
i swear i can do better , i swear i'll try harder . why am i such a failure at evrytg , never puttg a smile across someone face ? or laugh lines . 'sobs uncontrollably'
im sorry to everyone .