i tried holdg on to the reins , pullg it back .
but i guess i lost it . all of it .
cause i know , im not strong and i couldn't handle it . && i distanced , guess it worked .
don't really wnat people to really know what's going on .
cause , in the end of the day , it's still you going through it .
hisyam is cumg out like this week . everytg is going to change , with kak ayumi & the baby stayg over here .
can i just pretend like i don't care ? i seriously got no idea what to do .
just going to cover that make-up smeared eyes , and put on a smile .