i firstly feel so screw-ed up . Maybe somehow i feel like slammg my head on the wall to just stop thinkg , i still remember what mingyong say , dont think too much . damn-eddd . I tried not to show , i want to pretend that everytg is okay , isnt it sometg i have learnt to do for so long ? 'smiles weakly' i still want to be your freind silly , guess we can't be as close as before . Maybe one day you would see , what i mean .

had remedial today , i woke up like at 7.50 and rang shirin's phone , several times , but no answer . Luckily i rang her home and she picked up , rushed to dress up as our remedial start at like 8.30 . By the time i reach at her condo's bustop it was already 8.20 . darn-ed , we panicked and rushed to sch , cannot make it to class as class finish at 9.30 and we reach there at 9.15 , surely get f up , so headed to canteen , and blabbb . 'laughs' fortunately i dont take DNT , and just hang around the comp lab and did my art while shirin did her dnt . then mt remdial , so sleepy , glad i didnt fall asleep .
wanted to go home afterwards , but rok invited me over to her crib with shirin , and ordered pizza while watchg a movie only we cudnt concentrate and started playg uno . Yelaaa , i salah kay ? i take the card from below , i CHEAT . god , pasal tu pun nak majuk , fine im a loser . i hope yur happy now , alalarrr . If you want to take my heart away like u used to why dont you show it ? i longed to hear you say your heart's contents .

if someone ask u to stay away from them , would u do as they say ? or fight back ? i was not born with a laid back character , i wonder why do i care for everyone so much when they dont feel the same . Nash was right, im too good for my own good .