he's still tryg to figure out stuff .




I WAS SOOOOO NOT DIGGING MY NOSE .




basically spent the whole morning , stockg up on alot of sleep . && the above is what i called ugly cam-whoring .
but i woke up damn early at 8 pluss .
what a waste, want wake up after 10 at least uhhs .
'rolls eyes' fought with sissy . MAJOR one last night .
irratatg seyy . she's not in any way helpg my current situation , thank you very much .
i wished we din't ahve to fight larr .
that why im so lazy to fight with her , and i just shut up .

thenn , i went to sleep again arnd one , godd .
i then dreamt about pontianak , wahhh . she was chasg me everywhere , laughg and laughg .
i tripped & felt , and that's when someone knocked my door .
wheeww .
luckily , i'd probably get a heart attack in my sleep or sometg .
woke up & saw that hazhim's laptop has arrvied . He's on it from like just now , installing stuff .
he's eyes ystd , was horrible , was so bulgy .
&& my red dye . washed out .
daniel daniel .
thanks alot ! 'laughs'

'pokes at keyboard'
wahhhh . i pity hazhim , he sprained his ankle ! 'pats his head' he's sleeping .
it looks so darn puffy . mummy took urgent leave to bring hazhim to the docs .
my hair , is in a different shade right now .
so darn nice , i tell you .
i'll show you guys soon GFFS .

basicallly , im sleepyyyyy .
but sissy wants to clean room . 'rolls eyes'

so not in the mood .
GAHHS*

went out with family ystd .
'lets go breath'
watched indina jones , mummy wanted to watch it so muchh larr .
i sat beside hazhim && laughed all the way , cause we thought that it was a show for old-old people .
then in the end overall , damn funn laa .
but 2 hour long , my neck hurt . bahhhh .
plus the show at 7 , but the cinema didn't allow us to go in till at least 7 .2o .
plus syida sit beside me , her foot , phewwww , 'covers nose'
smelllllyyyy !
never seen mummy that happy for a long time , so was glad to see mummy that way .

PLUSS , today i din't go to schooll . 'covers face' i was already at the interchange uhh ,
when my stomach gave problems .
so what the hell .
so went home and toot-toot , then daddy told me to follow him go see syabir , so diff his face.
they shaved his head . again .

GAHHS* 'rubs eyes' i have rested enough , going to clean this pig-sty in a little bit .

BUTT , before that , i want to say to sabbie babe , last long with noor alright , never seen you that happy in a long time girl . you deserved it && ily too! wahhaa .

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so NOT twinss .


Mummmyyyyyyyyy .
bloodd siblingss . it's better this way , if you get what i mean

this is what i get when i ask hazhim for a pict . 'rolls eyes'



people going to kill me eyh ? i wished studyg is sometg i love to do.
'bangs head' just knwo , wow .
have never seen , ... 'trails off' above are picts , that are suppose to be post a long time ago .
bear with me eyh.
first one , err jurong swimming pool with family , second was talentime at siling sec , lastly was outg with ama & liana .
wahhas . had a nerve racking long time uploadg evrytg .

going swimming again . ain't my choice alryt . was mummy's wanted to spent time with us .
so going with cousin's , finally get to see dona again .
mummy is currently extremely fed-up with me .
BAHHS*
waited till like after 3 am yesterday for darlg to call .
in the end , nada . nothing , i have like huge eye-bags now .
didn't sleep well , woke up a few times last night .
text-ed ir for a while , heehs . talked crap , but at least it kept me awake .
i hope he'd call today though . 'rolls eyes' din't talk to him for a day , feel as though a thousand pins are stuck in my heart .
PLUSS , on top all this all , im sick .
my nose is killing me . 'sniffles' wished the world , would juts keep silent & still just for a few seconds .
cherish what you have now , cause once it's gone , it may be too late to say sorry or even ''i love you''
ouhh godd, i miss him . 'shakes head' GAHHHS*
dad's nagging again . 'cover ears'
can't wait , to go far away from here .
maybe , daddy sendg me far away isn't such a bad thing anyways .
i got to pack now , let's just hope i don't fall down and die or sometg .


'wrinkles nose'

waiting for your common sick , common empty .
desperate for your voice listening , to the song we used to sing .

GAHHS*
waited & waited for yur call darlg . went to the libs with zuzu , met up with sissy & kak ayumi .
begged her to pay my fines just so we can borrow books .
in the end used sissy card .
THANKSSSSS YEAA SYIDAAAA .
'laughs'
then go get frapps at mcafe , it was nice , but starbucks better .
tried to smile , my way thru . know i can't hide anytg from sissy & kak ayumi .
im torn inside .
every single night we fight , when is it going to end?
it's all my fault . im never good enough .
the song fall for you suits my mood now , daniel .
minutes turn into hours , i can't stand this .

finally rmrbred to loan zuzu babe , babel .
i wanted to know what's so good about it . nyehhs . 'chomps on pearl'

i seriously got no mood at all todayy .
don't ask why . if you wish to chat , i'd prefer textg at this time .
'sighs'
major headache . going to do sometg else .

this is how ugly i look with teeth . 'laughs' wahhhhh .





again . im home alone with hahzim . syida slept over aunty ani house .
wahhaa , long time since i had the room to myself . 'claps hands'
fought with mummy habis - habisan yestd night . cried myself to sleep .
GAHHS* then today , mummy & daddy sent me to admiralty , in the car , mummy nagged again .
i was so pissed when i left the car . pffft*
going to spent every single second with zimbo , at home . i missed his crappy ass .

'rubs eyes' im so sleepy . cam-whored in the morning to cover evrytg else up .

i hold a place for you & i . inside my heart for you & i .
i won't forget this tears i cry , with every year that pass me by .

talk to a cute boy/girl?

} uh-huh

- talked to an ex?

} last night , when i was swearing at him .

- miss someone?

} very much . 'sighes deeply'

-
last person who laid in bed with you?

} my bantal busuk .'makes a face'

- last person made you cry?

} believe it or not , it's a girl .

- went to the movies with ?

} hahzim and his gf .

- went to the mall with?

} sissy , kak ayumi , and zimbooo .

- made you laugh?

} just today , zuzu , shirin , zimbooooo!

- said they love you?

} no one has done that , today .

- what are you most scared of?

} err , it's a secret? well money .

- does anyone like you?

} i think so . how should i know? 'laughs'

- do you like being around people?

} very muchh

- have you cried recently?

} last night .

- are you lonely right now?

} nahh , i got zimbooo .

- song stuck in your head?

} like a knife - secondhand serande ( i think that's how it's spelt)

- have you been on radio/tv?

} nahh . my face? beside drain maybe .

- ever liked someone who treated you like crap?

} alot of times .

- what time is it?

} 7.37 pm .

- how much cash do you have on you right now?

} im broke .

- whats your favorite food?

} mee soto , PLUSSS , sushi .

- who got you to join Myspace?

} Bahar

- can you lay in your bed all day?

} yes , if im on the phone .

- wish someone was next to you in the morning when you wake up?

} uh-huh , so that they can kiss me awake

- what web site do you visit the most?

} blog. friendster.

- do you have any plants in your room?

} nahh , never liked plants. the always die .

- who was the last person to talk to you ?

} zimboooooo .

- SECRETS -

- what is your display name about?

} someone . 'winks'

- where was your default picture taken?

} my room .

stay with me , or watch me bleed .
going out with daniel baby tmrw .
not to sure where-to thoughh . crapp.
'laughs'

he damn bloody shy uhh , see if i can get picts . 'winks'
din't watch congkak uh , instead spent time with hazhim , mr.shaggy waggy .
he's hair so lonnnnng .
degil sey, ask him to cut already .
he has a secret that he's scared off , but i can't tell you guys .
he'd surely kill me . we watch-ed into the blue , while i dozed off on the sofa .
wahhhaa . leavg hazhim to watch on his own .

'smiles wickedly'
im still sooo sleepy , but i'm like waitg for daniel to call .
'makes a face'

i don't get you anymore .
you come around , getting all pissed easily .
pfft*

daniellll , daniell , daniell ..
im sorry i din't text you back just now .
wasn't in the mood at all . GAHHS*
what's wrong with me .
i going to watch congkak , and see what's so scaryy
pfft*

people is so going to what the hell with me right now .
for postg picts that are days old .
'laughs' sorry bebs , too lazyy? lalalaaaa .
basically got results for mid-year today . it shows alot you know , crapp .
i don't want to lose daddykins . studyyyyyyy . i will , i promise .
i don't get myself now days , like moody for no apparent reason . crapp ? yes truly .
why ouhh why?? i don't get it . fighting with mostly everyone .
but , the problem that disturbs me the most is mummy . she seeing me as someone bad .
i can't have that , godd , i want her to see me the way she looks at syida .