gagagugu.
neyehshs . wells hazhim is going to msia agaen !! wth? by this sunday . i hope i an see him before his departure seyy . but id be working . fuck this. i cudnt ask for off larrhs .
wth?
but he'd be back before raye urrhs . one day before rayerr .alahai .. gna mish hym .
i fell soo dammnn freaking ... left out !
i can't hear anyone talking about what they are going to wear for rayer with their boyfie .
i can't stand it . i feel lyk ripping my ears . i dun have anyone to spent it with and that sucks cause i chose it to be this way . im not jealous i think . im just irritated .
the saddest thing is , when i with someone my phone would be 24/7 ringing off the hook , but nowdays , there would not be even one fking text msg or miss call .
i feel as if i been thrown ed away and forgotten .


been a sucky friend to that someone. it's not that i don't want to hear her talk abot him , laugh about the stupid things he said or the jokes that he made .and discuss how he look and confess that he does really look hot or something . but it kills me so .
'sighes'

i preoccupied my self with reading& studying and blasting my ears . or numb everything by just going to sleep .

i want 'PRINCEcharmg back . but no matter how many time i text hym i say it won't bring him back .yes i made a mistake .
and now im trying to make it right . but guess what . i can't .