ugh! spent yesterday . the whole day at suspension . heyy ! my hair is not that obvious right . i mean it looks natural . me and zuzu went nuts singing to each other . we talked so darn much till our DM came and separated us. i had to sit beside an express guy . i forgot his name though . then my mummy came saving the day . but it was already one o'clock and school let out at 1.50 . but at least seh came although syabir make problems again and she had to be at two places at once . she still came . 'Mr smiley face so darn nice . he went to find for us black hair spray and he got one from hilman. and in order to get that spray he went to wash his hair so that his hair colour would be shown . i was like hell freaking out for hym seyy . he already got himself into CBO and now he want problems with his hair . went jalan rayer with sab ama they all . zuzu dint want to tag cause she wnated to sleep .'smiles' well nvm us . we did have fun but we din't get to go cikgu hamizah house when we promised too . shit . me and sab had a long talk yesterday . we wanted to go mac cafe but but my pri school freinds from christ church were there . so we sat somewhere and talk . i had to control myslef from crying i tell you . i fell that i can live without him , but actually i can't . that 'PRINCEchamrg's girlfreind and him uses the same words we do . for example : b ,(like baby) 'smiles' you know the inverted commars i always use? yeahh they are using it too . im getting fuck up . sompart of me wants to be happy for him . but i can't stand it you know . when i see couple and all . i getting sick in my eyes . wanting him even more badly just to be like what we used too . and like one more thing . i always use NESS . for example . coolNESS . hauteNESS . she uses it too now . i feel so weak i can't compete . im giving in .