I dont know if you cry yourself to sleep hugging yourself so tightly so that somehow it feels as though u're not alone . I wished that u'd spill your pride on the floor , and come to me unguarded , unprepared , unarmed . & just end this all by telling me how u feel . Maybe , you are feelg the same way i am , but u're handling it so much better than i am right now . This sorry state is just going to ruin me further , what am I doing .